10 months later...

So its been quite a while since I wrote last. Good news, my baby girl is now sleeping through the night! :) Well, she's transformed into a toddler and has been sleeping through the night for quite awhile now. Soon, though, we will be entering the world of sleepless nights once again once baby boy Perkins arives. Only 8 more weeks to the due date (March 24), and these last few weeks I know will fly by. We are very excited and nervous to meet him, and have finally settled on a name, I think. But you won't know until he is born, we're keeping it to ourselves for now, just in case we change our minds... again.

Selah is now 19 months old, and quite a handful. She provides us with lots of entertainment, and constantly makes me laugh. She is so sweet, and also so stubborn. Her favorite word right now is "No" said with the attitude and furrowed brow only a toddler can have. I love watching her grow into her personality, she is such a social butterfly and loves to be around other kids/people, often walking right up to a kid she doesn't know and giving them a hug as that other child just stands there motionless trying to figure out why this little person is touching them. On the other hand, she also loves to have her alone time and be able to explore things on her own. I can't imagine loving another child as much as I do her, but I think I will soon find out that it is possible.

I am still not always so confident of my parenting abilities, and it just gets harder the older Selah gets. Everytime we are in the nursery at church together and she smacks another child, I cringe in embarrassment, afraid of the judgment from the other workers there. I think that I probably judge myself a lot more than anyone else really does. Why do we put so much expectation on ourselves? Every mom was a new mom at some point in time, so we really should show grace and love towards each other, right?

More than two years later and I still always fall back on that one phrase. And it just becomes more true everyday.

"I find comfort in the Lord, knowing that He is confident in me".